never something i could hide

and i say
hooooo
hooooo

ohoh, something wonderful is going on in my room. i'm so happy right now. i hope i don't crap everything, i started my first oil-painting on sunday and now it's becoming clearer and clearer after many many hours. i guess i never managed to materialize my dreams in a better way. i only hope i don't crap everything... though oil is a wonderful medium if a mistake was made.

oh, and i realize how much i adore disney, one of the most fantastic minds i know.


oh, and i cleaned up my mind and conscience. i talked to a person i've always adored and found out there is no response, so at least i know now. plus i deleted all my illegal mp3s (~2300?) and threw away tons of illegally copied cds and dvds. I will have to format my both pc-harddisk, too, i want a new start for them. I wanted to stop all this illegal stuff, i believe it doesn't bring luck to anyone. I also went to buy many new cds, but its a wonderful thing to be in a real music store and to listen to music i've never heard before and them buy albums. I love female vocals such as dido and norah jones, but also male vocals like xavier naidoo, one of the best german (soul- ?) singers know. hm...

i only keep my illegally copied win2000 for my pcs and several programs like flash, photoshop, illustrator, office, max3d ... there is just no other way for me, at least it would be really really hard. maybe i manage to get legal versions after some time. the problem is that these learn-softwares aren't provided by our schools but they are required... really stupid and the schools give us illegal versions and such... yeah...

well, it was a beginning to throw away most of the crap as i wrote above. (: